Month: September 2020

These days, I’m trying to be a little more conscious of the things about my life that left an impact on me. Or should I say trauma? I’ve been reflecting on the things I have done and those that have been done to me.

Anyways, while I’m working on it… I’m deciding to make blogging less of a priority for me. I guess I’ll just be posting sporadically now.

I’ll be reading and watching more, I hope. I’m planning to read Rebecca and Murder On The Orient Express. I’ll also be watching the Twilight films because they are hilarious to watch and criticise via Zoom with friends.

Goodbye for now.

[Sorry, I forgot to upload anything last Saturday. Whoops.]

I took up Communication as my major in college – lots of reading and writing and speaking. And listening.

I’m thinking of how God is as a communicator. I like to think He would be an ideal client:

• Communication manual: check. The Bible has the answers to the questions.
• Unlimited budget: check. The universe is His billboard space. (Side-thought: Why doesn’t God ever try to do something obvious like use the stars to spell out “BELIEVE IN ME” or something?) Plus, there are a lot of people who want His message across, so resources aren’t a problem.
• Good message: check. Faith, Hope, Love – a built in tagline. Giving up His only Son to save the world? Heart-wrenching. Devastating. Hollywood should get on that ASAP.

So why does it feel so complicated to get the point across? I’m starting to think we’re the problem here. All humans (those serving God and those not) might not be a very good audience:

• We misinterpret the Bible.
• We misuse those resources.
• We lack appreciation for the message we are trying to tell. 

We squander our talents. We have good intentions, but maybe poor presentation skills: many people in the world associate Christianity with offense, judgement, discrimination against others. There are also those who mask their bad intentions with Christianity and pretend to be good. 

And really, we don’t understand the message we try to sell sometimes. We take it for granted, or lack understanding, or we simply don’t live up to the message. You don’t expect someone promoting some gadget, only to find they are using a competitor gadget, do you? But we often fail to present ourselves the way God would.

I think of the world and all the miscommunication, the confusion, the double-meanings, the mixed-signals… and I think it boils down to a great disparity in truth and how to interpret truth. What is the truth? We don’t really know, nor do we bother ourselves to find out, since everything is already pre-packaged, advertised, and spoon-fed to us. 

It’s always up to us, as an audience, to ask questions. As Christians, it’s also up to us to seek goodness, true goodness, rather than trying to project an image of goodness and causing further misinterpretation. 

Finally, I think goodness sometimes exists with badness thrown in. No good story is thrown without a struggle, and only stories of struggle win those Oscars, baby. 

It has been a rough month for me, so I decided to skip out writing much this week entirely. I kind of have a day off today so I plan on sleeping lots, knitting, and re-organizing my bookshelf.

I went on a Shopee spree the past week, so I am also waiting for my packages to arrive. I ordered a silicone mat for baking and I want to make Korean rice cakes. I’m really hoping a Van Gogh sketchbook I ordered also arrives because I want to scrapbook with it.

Random Side Note: My beauty philosophy is to look SO HEALTHY that if we were living in ancient times I would be chosen to bear heirs for royalty.

While celebrating my brother and our dog’s birthdays today ahead of schedule, we received word that my aunt’s husband had passed away.

I wasn’t very close to him but I’m still sad. Juggling life and death in one day makes my bones feel weary.